20th January 12
I just feel like randomly update this dusty tumblr of mine. Have you guys ever feel so left out by your love ones? Yes that’s what I’m feeling right now. It’s like each individual have time of their own and forgot about me even my bf. I’ve got to understand that his tired but I jut feel so sad that there’s such a lil time for us to spend together. I was normally the one that get super excited for his book out but instead he will go home and sleep and rest and no more late calls :( The feeling whereby you just feel so lonely and feel like weeping your heart out, yes that’s what I’m feeling. And this is the only blog that I get to rant everything. Somehow I miss blogging :/ I swear i feel lonely this days and I have no idea why. Sigh…
30th December 11
Along the Sidewalk...: Marriage is....
hakuna-mataataa:
waking up next to each other every morning, sometimes with a beautiful glowing face & other times, with your hair in uncountable tangled knots, with half the pillows on the floor and that sleepy voice. Marriage is walking in on each other in the bathroom yet being completely normal about it, because you’re just that comfortable. It’s playfully punching and pinching one another, then hurting them by accident, childishly kissing their ‘boo-boos’ and then laughing your heart out at them just because it’s funny. It’s deliberately touching their face when you have cold hands just to get their attention [or to try to bug them]. Marriage is seeing them at their worst; unconscious, sick, dizzy, tired, wounded, almost dead and want to be there all the more. It’s competing with them to see who gets the attention of the cat first. It’s doing nothing, just sitting there, and not being bored. It’s putting a blanket on them when they fall asleep on the couch. It’s getting up when you really don’t feel like it to do something for them, just because they need it done. It’s getting irritated at little things and then forgetting what you were mad about when they approach you. It’s changing your mood just so it’s in sync with theirs. Marriage is being angry, being upset, getting disappointed more than expected. It’s accepting them at their worst and being accepted at yours. Marriage is being bonded together with superglue, trapped within this institution with no escape to absolute freedom, having to deal with each other in whatever case, because you’re not supposed to be apart any more, because you didn’t get married to get away. It’s being the one to make them smile, even though they may upset you because you know their smile reaches you faster than a heartbeat. It’s wanting to rip each other apart with anger yet still love each other to pieces. It’s sharing a bed with the same person, for the rest of your life, despite what goes on in the day. It’s laughing and crying at the same time, then laughing/crying even harder because you’re so stupid for doing so. Marriage is not perfect, nor is it supposed to be; Marriage is work, continuous work, and always will be.
At the end of the day, it’s about not giving up. It’s not about finding it worth it, it’s about making it worth it all. :) <3
(via bittersweetloves)
30th December 11
(Source: picklestothemoon, via bittersweetloves)
